My Roots

I’m a broken and battered human, like most humans; I come from roots which may potentially humble anyone, yet I’m not your “average” ~ I’m a survivor through and through, and I’m tired ~ But my story is one many may not believe, and even I find hard to believe till this day ~ But soon, the world will know, the “Half of It” 👣 Born the end of April before the turn of the century, in Orange County, California, my life crumbled as my dysfunctional family soon began to break ~ The logistics of what happened to my mother and I between my birth, and now, at the hand of my demented “family” is too difficult to simply explain~ There are no words ~ Five custody battles later, 1 “grandparents case”, 32 moves within 2 years and continuously counting, weekly visitation, experiencing abuse, molestation, fear and incredible sadness as I learnt the fate of my new life, which continued for years to come traveling 4 times a year across the country, contracting Chronic Lyme Disease, struggling to make ends meet and simply survive, intense isolation, comfortability to poverty, and repeat ~ Yet through all the in between, the survival, the sadness, the ignorant judgement I have received, the learning of life’s most horrific lessons, the perspective I developed on life from such a young age, and all of what I haven’t spoken of~ I smile, I laugh, I yearn to love and be loved, and I fight every damn day 🗝 I have a story, and on my own, I’ll use that story to push me to the life I deserve; the life where I have the ability to give, to inspire, to rescue, to support and finally, be able to “breathe” a breath of relief rather than survival ~ Until then….. 🖤

 

It would be pretty difficult to “sum up” my “roots”, right here, right now, so I’ll     start with the “present”…

If we haven’t met, I’m Sascha (Pedzy-Johnston), and it’s an absolute pleasure to meet you!  I’m a survivor, a writer (and aspiring author), a “Holistic Lifestyle Blogger” (as you can see, wink), a seeker of authenticity and humor within this world, a passionate human loyal to everything and everyone I love, a proud “Cat Mom”, a “Jeep Loving” adventure seeker, “Real Food” and Fashion enthusiast, and most of all, I have chosen to smile through the everything”.  I’m not here because I have some “fancy résumé”, or privileged background which enabled me this opportunity.  I, alone, have become my own opportunity, and what an amazing feeling that is…

 

We may have met when I lived in Florida, or where I live now, in Arizona….But, to bore you with the simple facts, I was actually born and raised for about 9 years in southern California, where my life would be forever altered…  I was born into complicated family circumstances, in which I was forced to “grow up” at an early age, learning that life, is not forgivingto say the least.  Avoiding the hardcore details, my mother and I were left, living in the biggest “oxymoron” imaginable, living a life worthy of the “big-screen”; everyday, the unimaginable became a reality.  Left on-the-run, fighting for our lives, and what was left of our strength, and dignity, we fought, and fought.  Through the complexities of surviving, with everything, and everyone against us, I contracted Lyme Disease unknowingly at the age of 7, which would alter my life even further, forever; that’s where this place you are visiting right now, grew its’ roots …

After a car-accident nearly 7 years later, I discovered the true status of dormancy I had been experiencing, as the “rage” of this harrowing disease reared it’s ugly head, once again.  I continued the quest, searching for at least a nameto what many call, The great imitator”.  A blessing in disguise, like many, I finally searched in a different direction after my many misdiagnoses, and tested through “Igenex Laboratories”, in which I was diagnosed with, what is now chronic Lyme Disease.  It was then, that my journey to regaining the person I had been, and striving for the independence I never had, begun…

It is with great pride, that I have become my own herosculpting my destiny to the best of my abilities, despite all of life’s “setbacks”.  Through my own determination and external guidance of God as well as the few genuine people who have stuck by my side, I have been able to keep my mind and body functioning as best as I can.  My smile, was once my deceitful mask, disguising my truth, but now, has become my greatest strength and most beautiful truth; I am not ashamed.  

Lyme disease, does not, and will not define who I am.  There is much more to me than meets the eye, and I’m so anxious to share with the world, knowing I may very well guide, support and inspire many.  I am writing my book, and once written, shall my soul be set-free, at peace.  BUTin the mean time, join me here, on an in-between journey, so I can help you create your own “beginnings”, using the knowledge I have acquired, through world I anxiously invite you to; a world of hope, inspiration, healing, authenticity, laughter, and a new, brighter self-image, so we may stop taking ourselves so seriously, as humans do.  Get in on the KILLER recipes and healing holistic lifestyle I have created for myself, which have inspired many, and kept me running afloat mentally and physically.  Let us acknowledge the ugly, and be open-minded to exploring our own individual truths’. Friends, “Smileylymie” is rooted in my belief, that your greatest superpower, is your willpower, and your ability to look chaos right in the face, with a good ole genuine smile.  Your attitude has great power, to determine your outcome.